GTFO!!!

Im so pissed but not but stupid but i dont deserve this and I just wanted a friend and then all this i know its her that dumb girl that hey if she can take care of all his problem then she better take care of the ones he left with me too.. but know its stupid and damnit it hurts.. i dont like expecting so much from people but Id at least like honesty and i don't feel like i get that and he is going she s not a dumb girl she wants to help the one she loves and she sacrificed herself to do that and that's beautiful but it was n't my fault and i DONT deserve to be left with nothing. i need him to need me its dumb and possessive and all that but why cant i belong feel belonging i do sometimes but not here not now. will i ever not be achild myself. once again i feel insignificant and i want nothing. i want the beauty of a black hole. I want to split apart into nothings known. Every thing is just a does it matter? does this little ball of nerves matter. does matter matter.. will i ever get to feel close with love love again bah id o butt its it s my problem not something i miss her always so much i can hardley breath sometimes..

not sleep no eat comes from no enigma thingy

its a place that im at whenever i feel loved its a place i go sometimes all by myself when no one could try to understand because you dont have to you just do the things that make me feel okay is stemed from sincerity close your eyes and tell me you love me enough to tell me the truth tell me you think of her and come with her in mind get it out damnit tool me if you need to dont close your eyes and tell me its not me go dont stay just go just hold me in you dreams and thats all

thats all i want dont choke me and tell me how he did you wrong.. make it up to me please then go go go go and never come back leave me with nothing but a nice gester if you want thats all i want you to want a parting gift and a but load of honesty about the grass. or everything anything but not the hurt just say you sorry about that i don't need to hear it i already know it hurts i was proud of you when you just told me about the violence and did not act.. but then you did anyway and it hurt that anger hurt and the mark is on my soul your force can just go

i just want a hug from someone who cares really. I feel no soul connection from you and you andyou andyouandyouandyouandyouandyouandyouandyou andalso many many many more users (thieves(ungrateful bastards(i really cant forgive fully till its over))) but
you darlin' and you baby and you sweetness are the ones i long for more then any one could ever know. alls i want for everything i have done or will ever do is a honest to god sincere acceptance of me in hug form

XOXO kimberly dawn fucking buringrud